I feel like i've lost myself. That's probably why i don't know what direction to go in. How can I go anywhere else if i don't know who or what I am?

I'm not girly enough. I'm not athletic enough to pull off the tom-boy thing. I just..feel...like...crap.

This probably didn't need to go here (no, it in fact doesn't) and will be deleted at a later date.

Not sure when this site will actually be completely gone...

I've missed posting here, I really have. Didn't try to start a new blog anywhere else - just kept my thoughts to myself and occasionally jotted 'em down on paper. A lot sure has happened!

Doing my best to stay positive - and wondering why i can't seem to shake some "shadows" of the past...

Farewell to all, and best wishes. Thank you, creators and operators of Blogstream, for providing us all a forum for thoughts, ideas, discussion, and community.

Yesterday it was sunny and 70 degrees. Today, it was 40 or 50 and grey. Yesterday, I was in pants wishing I had a dress to slip into. Today, I was in a skirt and LOVED it, despite cold weather.

There's something about a skirt that makes me feel empowered. Crazy how this only happened about a year ago.

Trusting one's self can be the hardest thing at times. It requires accepting a great amount of responsibility.